Archive for April, 2007

Biology

April 15, 2007

The summer before I was going to be a sophomore in college I took a biology class at a community college because, I said, I wanted to get the out of the way. The real reason was that I couldn’t have passed it anywhere else.

These were the class’ two parts: (a.) the lab section and (b.) the class section. The class section wasn’t bad because the questions on the test were multiple choice.

I could do that.

Students sat in the back of auditorium and weren’t sure how to act during a summer class that they knew they would pass if they just sat still and recognized bold-faced words.

That class part was in the afternoons. The lab section, however, was in the mornings in another building and ran by a teaching assistant who was too easy on everyone because when he asked students to do anything they got mad at him and he got mad back and he gave in or took away points. If he would have worn a suit rather than jean shorts and a polo, none of this would have happened.

Whenever we had to do a project, we’d split up into groups and in my group was a fat girl, a pretty girl and smart guy. As I remember, the fat girl liked me, the smart girl had a boyfriend and the smart guy would be described as nondescript if he were a building and a lazy author was describing him. One time, we had to dissect a pig fetus. We stood in front of the body like it was a dead person on top of a mountain and our expedition had run out of supplies. Then I looked beside me and everyone had backed up and, suddenly, I was the closest one to the pig fetus.

“Oh,” I said.

So I was going to be the one to cut into the pig fetus. The worst part was not how you had to tie it down even though it was slippery and reeking of formaldehyde (which, if you didn’t know, smells like the ash from burnt sailor tendons sprinkled over circuitry). The worst part was when I pulled apart the pig fetus rib cage and it made a crack.

Because I had a few hours between lab and class, I thought I should read. So I read Timequake by Kurt Vonnegut. It was the first Vonnegut I had read since Slaughterhouse-Five in 9th grade.

I liked Timequake because how it moved and talked and turned itself over. Vonnegut made me laugh because he was flippant and sincere.

I finished it pretty quick, re-read Slaughterhouse-Five and thought about the house where Billy Pilgrim lived and how he rolled off of his fat wife after having an orgasm and giving a squeak. I thought about how helpless he felt.

My biology class teacher was an almost-old man who provided all the notes online so I didn’t take any. I felt like I should have, though, because “what if?…”

But no one cared about what the professor said, because, if they did, they obviously would not be taking this class. One day, he tried to engage us by talking about health myths, one of them being about was how people thought taking Vitamin C helped you get better and prevent colds.

There is no evidence to support this, he said. It is an urban legend.

I sat up. An urban legend? But this is what my dad believed this. He had a big bottle of Vitamin C in the kitchen cabinet. Sure, it wasn’t magic, but it sure helped “if you take one of these when…”

I worked hard in the classes. I worked hard even though it was difficult to concentrate. I wanted to smoke a lot, because it was something to do. During class breaks, I stood with the other smokers and they didn’t mind if I listened to them talk.

I also had a hard time concentrating because I was taking Hydroxycut, which is an appetite suppressant/TV wonder drug. It didn’t help me lose weight unfortunately because I was taking other medication that wouldn’t let me. It did make me jittery, though. The back of my legs were tense.

At the end of six weeks, I had two B’s. I don’t remember what I did for the rest of the summer, though. I know I freelanced a little bit, felt sorry for myself a lot. The floor in my living room is wood, and that felt nice with the air conditioning on.

Vonnegut

April 12, 2007

Vonnegut is dead and then I am a grownup.

“I told her on the telephone that a sunburned, raffish, bored but not unhappy ten-year-old boy, whom we did not know, would be standing on the gravel slope of the boat-launching ramp at the foot of Scudder’s lane. He would gaze out at nothing in particular, birds, boats, or whatever, in the harbor of Barnstable, Cape Cod. At the head of Scudder’s Lane, on Route 6A, one tenth of a mile from the boat-launching ramp, is the big old house where we cared for our son and two daughters and three sons of my sister’s until they were grownups. Our daughter Edith and her builder husband, John Squibb, and their small sons, Will and Buck live there now. I told Jane that this boy, with nothing better to do, would pick up a stone, as boys will. He would arc it over the harbor. When the stone hit the water, she would die.”

- Kurt Vonnegut, Timequake

Whisper

April 8, 2007

I always get excited about live music at a bar I’m walking into that I didn’t know had live music to be offered. “Live music? Excellent. I didn’t know they were going to have live music. No cover either. Nice.”

But unless R & B legends The Whispers just happened to file on stage or this bar in downtown Kalamazoo is actually the next birth of whatever will come after hip-hop, you’re going to be disappointed.

If the music is quiet, you might get lucky enough to be unoffended or bemused. I really wanted to use the word “nonplussed” right then even though I found out a while ago that “nonplussed” doesn’t mean what I thought it means. It means “utterly perplexed” and I thought it meant “unphased.”

Anyway, a band called Walkin’ Papers was playing tonight at a bar in Indiana. I felt good that they had this thing in their lives where they could get away from their wives and kids and play Buffalo Springfield and think back to a time when they were young and people used the word “funky” to describe them.

Walkin’ Papers trapped my ass, though, because it was me, a friend, Walkin’ Papers and a room full of people not at all rocking to Walkin’ Papers. Still, Walkin’ Papers played loud. Not loud enough so you couldn’t think, but loud enough to where you didn’t want to talk to anyone after an initial attempt to talk to them:

Me: Hey.

You: What?

Me: Hey.

You: I can’t hear you.

Me: What?

You: I can’t hear you.

Me: (looking at you)

You: (yelling in my ear) I can’t hear you!

Me: Ah!

You: Sorry.

Me. It’s cool.

You: What?

Also, Walkin’ Papers reminded me that the nature of musical preference is devastatingly depressing. For instance, while most people don’t like living musicians who are far older than them (and DON’T say “hey, I like the Beatles” or “hey, I like this indie artist” because both of those don’t count for different reasons), it is possible to like musicians older than yourself.

It is not possible, however, to like musicians far younger than yourself. This means that very soon the best you can do is like old good music. Even if you did like new good music — and I’m speaking of you at an age when you’re old, let’s say 34 — that would be worse.

Older people can’t even mention liking music that is re-recorded old music (like John Legend or The White Stripes) without making younger people who like that music feel disgusted.

“Hey, these guys sound a lot like the Four Tops!”

“No way, Dad, get out of my room! Ugh!”

I’m not saying this is how preferences should be treated, I’m just saying one day society will turn its back on you and view anything you do outside of the office as perverted or suspicious.

I’ll go ahead and blame reunion tours for this because those should make everyone uncomfortable. “Sweet! Did you hear Cream is going to tour this summer?” Oh great, a 60-year-old man singing about a 17-year-old girl. But at least when REO Speedwagon plays at your county casino it’s not as bad as the reunion tours where promoters get a bunch of groups together that each had one hit and put on a nostalgia show filled with “remember when?” moments.

OK, yes. I am just pissed because it puts pressure on me to do something significant with the rest of my 20’s.

Llamas

April 6, 2007

A Tuesday evening.

Stacy: Is there something you need, babe?

Ryan: No, just thinking.

Stacy: Thinking about what?

Ryan: What?

Stacy: What you thinking?

Ryan: Oh, you know.

Stacy: What?

Ryan: Nothing.

Stacy: Come on.

Ryan: Well, you know how we’ve been wanting to try out some new stuff or whatever?

Stacy: Oh yeah, like, with sex you mean?

Ryan: Yeah.

Stacy: What were you thinking?

Ryan: Eh, I don’t know. It’s not something I want to do do. It’s just something I heard about.

Stacy: From who?

Ryan: Well, I heard about it from people before, but not from a specific person.

Stacy: Uh-huh, that’s cool.

Ryan: It was from a website.

Stacy: That’s OK, I told you I didn’t mind if you looked at that. I don’t get jealous or anything.

Ryan: I know.

Stacy: Wait, is it that tongue thing you asked about?

Ryan: What? Oh. No, no. Uh, that was…

Stacy: Don’t be embarrassed.

Ryan: I didn’t, I mean, I’m not.

Stacy: OK, well –

Ryan: –Well, I saw on this website about how sometimes couples bring other stuff into the bedroom. Like, other, you know.

Stacy: Like, toys?

Ryan: No.

Stacy: Oh. Ohhhh. I don’t know how I feel about a threesome. Like, I’m not into girls and don’t say I am because I’m not. Sorry, sorry. You were trying to be open. Is it something I’m not doing or… I don’t know. I mean, we can talk about it.

Ryan: It’s not a chick.

Stacy: What?

Ryan: No.

Stacy: Oh, I didn’t think you would want to bring in another guy. Honestly, I think I’d feel more comfortable with a woman, not that I wouldn’t try that. I mean, I don’t think I would, but, hey, it’s 2007. That’s stupid. Sorry. Anyway, is it one of your friends? I am not fucking one of your friends.

Ryan: No. It’s…OK, look, I’m not saying I want to do this, I just thought it was one of those ideas that might get something else going. Like, I saw on this website, the one that I was talking about, that sometimes couples try it with animals or whatever and –

Stacy: Animals?

Ryan: Yeah, I mean. I’m sorry. Sorry. No, it’s not that I want that. I mean, like, what do you think?

Stacy: Are you serious?

Ryan: Serious?

Stacy: Are you serious about having a threesome with an animal?

Ryan: Am I?

Stacy: Yes.

Ryan: No. Did I say that?

Stacy: No, but I can tell you want to. Oh my god.

Ryan: No I didn’t!

Stacy: Ugh.

Ryan: Baby.

Stacy: What kind of animal?

Ryan: What?

Stacy: What kind of animal would you want to have a threesome with?

Ryan: I’ve seen people do it with llamas.

Stacy: Llamas? How would that even work?

Ryan: I think you could do it a couple different ways.

Stacy: Like?

Ryan: Like the llama on one of the ends or in the middle. Like, the chick could be getting it from the llama and the dude would be giving it to the llama.

Stacy: Oh.

Ryan: Or the llama could just watch.

Stacy: Uhhh…

Ryan: I’m sorry.

Stacy: OK, let’s try it.

Ryan: All right.

Stacy: How are we going to get a llama, though?

Ryan: I know a guy.